| Fuck It... |
[Nov. 8th, 2004|06:31 am] |
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| | HRC- Now or Never | ] |
My hands are at YOUR throat, and i THINK i hate YOU |
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| Ha Ha... i guess this is true |
[Oct. 8th, 2004|08:27 pm] |
I AM 76% EMO!  Holy gee whilikers... I am as emo as it gets... I will try to cheer the heck up and stop wiping my nose on my sweater... |
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| O Dip! |
[Oct. 8th, 2004|08:18 pm] |
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| | Clean | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Billy Talent | ] |
Since i Havent updated in like a long time id figure id give u a rundown...
-Homecoming was tons o' fun
-got me a new spiffy car!
-joe is still tottal sweetness
-had another sucessful girls night
-jessica is 18 this saturday (woop woop)
-im so kickin ass in school (precalc and college prep especailly)
-im going to mi bro be oct 11
-i love rachel booth
-the biking thing---urghh i still suck and fall all the time lol
-My chemical romance is still the best band of all time right now
---and this--- how much is sweetness is this
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| Update |
[Sep. 12th, 2004|10:57 am] |
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| |  hungry | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Kenny Chesney- There goes my life | ] |
Yea sorry about the lack of updates...i just work to damn much and when im not working i babysit or im with joe...i have like no friends ne more...cause no one calls me but whatever...but yea i got a bike so now imma bike with shannon and gonnie then joe when i get some skill lol... but its just the same old shit...school, work, homework, thinking about homecoming, i got my dress which is exciting and stuff, nothing really schools not too bad mostly easy class 'cept for preclac that class is gonna kickk my ass but imma try as hard as i can...o yea and thinking about college...got ACT's one more time in October (actully theres alot going on in october) the ill offically apply, right now im worrying about teacher recomendations and other "supplements" to the apps...but i got so preclac i wanna start b4 i go to work so im out...just figuered id give a little update..
later. ash |
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| Young.... |
[Aug. 21st, 2004|11:18 pm] |
wow sorry havent updated in like a minute...sorry for that...
Um lets see ill go back to like tuesday cause i can remember what i did...
Tuesday- work thne hung out with sam and watched nip/tuck and talked and what not
wed- went and got a new mirrior for my car with joe then went out to eat with mom and bro-ha, then met back up with joe and bella..and just pretty much went galavanting with them 2 all night
ThUrSdAy- work....then...GIRLS NIGHT 2004 with jessi, nina, tynee, manda, and c-dizzle...we all slept at my house and ate food, gossiped and what not..it was good to have al the girls together
Friday-went to se the exorcist-the begining with sam and then went to chipolte..and that was cool..then i went to the best concert i went to all summer...RASCAL FLATS & KENNY CHESNEY--- it was seriously AWESOME im not like a huge ass country fan...but all those guys are my boys so it was only right for me to go...plus i got a guitar pick for the guirtarist from rascal flats then i g kennys autograph...not to mention awesome pics...cause well i was front row...AWESOME
then today i played with my neice until i went to work...then i came home and went out with tynee and christen...yea thats really about all...school starts soon im glad i need school im getting bored...and yea i want it to be fall...i miss everything from last fall and winter...i miss drives and long talks with matt, and friday night soup and degrassi with dom and tynee and c-dizzle ...i miss being with boothie like every saturday... i miss hanging out with a few people...but im happy im hanging out again with one of them... i think what i miss the most is not giving a care about anything and not having to worry about what other people think of me... i need to get back to that...but for right now i need sleep so im out |
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| i hate the fuckin world.... |
[Aug. 17th, 2004|10:53 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  aggravated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | FATA | ] |
do you think it hurts much to die
It's hurting so much more to stay alive now |
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| she'll fuck u just for the taste.... |
[Aug. 13th, 2004|11:00 pm] |
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| |  drained | ] |
I feel eyelashes on my cheek
And they lacerate my flesh
A pain so good
Put your hand in mine
Never let go
Never wake up 'cause I'm done with promises
I'm taking blood oaths
Feels likes you could kiss my imperfections
My imperfections away
And I would stand
Stand by your side until the sun turns the sky
All the colors I see in your eyes
I'll never need to see the sun again
There's enough light in your eyes to light up our little world
So take me, take my away
Kill me slowly, I'll never be the same
I swear to you, on everything I am
And I dedicare to you all that I have
And I promise you that I will stand right by your side
Forever and always until the day I die
The bite marks on my neck never felt so good
I'm losing control and it's all that I can do
Not to blackout and fall into lust with you
Your kisses infect me
The dark gift is loving you
And I feel immortal and I want to make you feel the same
So stand by me as we immulate
We can burn in each other's arms |
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| i suck at life lately |
[Aug. 10th, 2004|11:17 pm] |
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ok, so havent updted (like a real update) in a while
friday-went out camping with christen and her family for the weekend, and that involved CEADER POINT on saturday and making a new 10yr old friend named James with the coolest southern accent
sunday-came home, saw my neice, worked, joe came over and we worked things out, i guess, i dunno its gonna take some work and effort
monday-worked, then really did nothin but sit at myhose cause i didnt feel like doing anything
today- went out to lunch with mom and shoping then went to see napolean dynamite ( go see it), then i hung out with matt and court- and thats always fun, matts just always sarcastic which is funn and we watched nip tuck, such a good show i been addicted since i first saw it with him when it premeired...
but now i sit her think and figuring out the rest of my week, seeing as how i pry wont see my boyfriend till monday (not to sure what to do about that yet) and hoping to fix my work schedule...but im out kids,, i need sleep... |
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| Sleep.... |
[Aug. 6th, 2004|10:07 am] |
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so sleeping its like a huge part of ur life, i mean ur like asleep for half ur fuckin life...not in my case, i used to be able to sleep anywhere anytime...then i got sick, not like cough cough sick, but sick- things wrong in my head ya kno, so they gave me medication to sleep, and on and off the different meds worked, and i been on one that was really helping, until 2 nights ago, when i broke his heart...so for the last 2 nights all i think about is did i make the right decison, was this really the right thing to do, to be away from someone that means so much to me....well anyone will tell you that yea i did the right thing, because of what he did...but i didnt do this for what everyone elses is saying....i did this for us...for us to have time to think, and yea for me to have time to work at things so im better for you, me and us....just right now i knooits hard to understand...but the fact is were young...and yea its gnna hurt for a while and then we'll be fine me and u, maybe not us again right away ...but me and u....i kno im a strong person and im gonna be able to pull through this, and i hope u will be to...so when if it comes to us again we'll be ok.... |
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| i got pink stars on my sheets--how sweet is that |
[Aug. 4th, 2004|01:59 pm] |
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| |  bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | jojo-get out | ] |
So im sitting here at 2:45 in the afternoon with nothing to do and i left my diet coke downstairs,:(--- but neways yea i went to see john mayer last night and hes so awesome, and so hott, it was cool me and joe went for the 6 month thing u kno ... um nothin lately has been goin on just been kickin it with my girls lately which is what we all really needed in a sense and i been hanging out wth people i havent hung out with in a while and yea so its been all good....i went to see THE VILLAGE with a bunch of people on monday night and let me tell u it was a good ass movie, pretty scary me and tynee screamed and well u kno its good, GO SEE IT..., um yea i get to go camping and to ceader point this weekend with c-dizzles family which im so excited for cause i need to be away from everything and just be with her to figure shit out which will be good, um yea boo comes back thursday and its weird but i missed her even though shes only been gone like 2 days,still ...and yea so school in 3 weeks, but hey im not complaining cause its my senior year so its all godd, but still its my senior year without my bestest friend in the world cause shes a year older and is starting at KENT in the end of august, but hey imma go see her the weekend b4 she starts classes which will be good, cause its gonna be hard for me to be at scholl without her cause shes been there for me since i was a freshman...so its gunna be difficult but im sure ill make it through, and this year is gonna be sweet not only b/c i get out at 12:38 (hahaha biatches) but cause its senior year, so yea....
but neways i got tons of laundry calling my name so imma get to that
later kids |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 2nd, 2004|11:32 am] |
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| | irritated | ] |
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| | MCR--- | ] |
Sister, I'm not much a poet, but a criminal
And you never had a chance
Love it, or leave it, you can't understand
A pretty face, but you do so carry on,
and on,
and on
I wouldn't front the scene if you payed me
I'm just the way that the doctor made me, on,
and on,
and on,
and on
Love is the red of the rose on your coffin door
What's life like, bleeding on the floor,
the floor,
the floor
You'll never make me leave
I wear this on my sleeve
Give me a reason to believe
So give me all you poison
And give me all your pills
And give me all your hopeless hearts
And make me ill
You're running after something
That you'll never kill
If this is what you want
Then fire at will
Preach all you want but who's gonna save me?
I keep a gun on the book you gave me, hallelujah, lock and load
Black is the kiss, the touch of the serpeant sun
It ain't the mark or the scar that makes you one,
and run,
and run,
and run
You'll never make me leave
I wear this on my sleeve
Give me a reason to believe
So give me all your poison
And give me all your pills
And give me all your hopeless hearts
And make me ill
You're running after something
That you'll never kill
If this is what you want
Then fire at will
You'll never make me leave
I wear this on my sleeve
You wanna follow something
Give me a better cause to lead
Just give me what I need
Give me a reason to believe
So give me all your poison
And give me all your pills
And give me all your hopeless hearts
And make me ill
You're running after something
That you'll never kill
If this is what you want
Then fire at will |
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| Warped |
[Jul. 25th, 2004|12:19 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Allister | ] |
Warped tour 2004 was yesterday and lets just say it was an awesome day
~HIGHLIGHTS~
- Seing Allister perform 1st, on the main stage( then later buying an awesome t-shirt from their booth)
-Getting on the bar for Alkaline Trio, then later getting kicked in the face and rushed out my medics
-Dancing with C and a merch guy from the band THE ERKS
-My mom being in VIP so she could get us food quicker
-My Mom having FUNN!!!
-Getting taking back sunday's autograph--awesome guys
-getting Bleed the dream's autograph
-getting Billy Talents autograph
-seeing boothie(for like 2.5) and seeing Nicole
-seeing story of the year
-seeing FATA...+ many more bands!!!
All in all it wasa really good day(cept for how may face hurt)
Good people, and music and being there with the people that tottally rock was awesome, cant wait till next year... |
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| So it looks like things are looking up.... |
[Jul. 20th, 2004|04:10 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | hungry | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Ashlee Simpson- whole CD | ] |
lately all i do is work and saturday was the worst work day of all becaues o yea i worked 14 hours, then to come home to find out stuff i didnt know that happened(it was joe and he was an asshole and he hurt me alot) so what did i do when he left my house ...what eles do i do...call boothie...to save me from killing someone. and from crying...she got me to stop crying...but neways the naxt couple days were shit cause of all the pain i had inside me...i wnet to a summer overnight with NiNa at BW and that was alot of fun...but i still felt like crap..then yesterday was c-dizzles birthday so i went over her house after work for cake and funness and everyone there made me feel better and kept me sorta occupied so i wouldnt think about things...then today i went to the all to get my nails done and get my bros b-day present cause today hes the big 21!!!!!!! then on my way home my phone rings and its joe he wants to hang out...by this time... im think WTF do i do...he hurt me really bad...but i love this kid ...so i said yea we can chill... so he came over and it was so hard and ocward having him be there...but then i got the balls looked at him and poured out everything and cried and told him how much he hurts me and how much it still hurts...and that i dont deserve this shit and he doesnt deserve me at all....and we decide that were gonna work this out he told me no matter how longit takes...b/c i mean so much to him....so i guess this is good, its still hard but thats just how things have to be....
but other than that, i had a partay at my hizzouse on thursday cause my moma was out of town... and lets just say that was all extreme funness....
o yea boo, i saw nicole at the BW bookstore and i forgot to tell u
ne ways im out playas cause im going to D&B for my bros birthday...Tynees is tomorrow |
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